Saturday, July 14, 2018

Life Highlights: The End (Her Majesty)


It's officially been over a month since I've posted on here and just over 3 days since the official anniversary of this blog.

To say the past few weeks have been exhausting is an understatement.  I ended up facing a slew of both internal and external obstacles - moving apartments for the third time, officially applying for my current posiiton at HBO, planning a fall trip with my mom, learning how to be a handy woman in my new apartment, and to top it all off, and a positive note to end this chapter of my life, at least, seeing Ike for the first time in almost a year tonight!

However, despite this year being one of immense stress - pushing my mental, emotional, spiritual, and physical health to its limits - I can't help but also be so so SO grateful for my first year out of university.

I've learned even more about myself than ever before (including all that "self discovery" I did in college), learned more about the Lord's unfailing faithfulness and merciful graciousness than I ever thought possible, and overall feel like my life is better than it has been in a while.

I'm definitely not perfectly healthy and every day out here in New York City still feels like I'm clawing and fighting for my place to stay in the City.  I still haven't made as much progress as I would've liked in some areas of my life, but I've made leaps and bounds in others.  And I hope to move back to the west coast by spring of next year.

But no matter what, New York has solidified its place in my life and my heart by foundationally shaping who I am and who I will be as I continue trying my best to "adult" in the real world.

I don't have plans to completely abandon everything about this blog, but updates will definitely be quite sparse in the future, as although I feel like this blog has helped me process things and keep up with writing, I've taken to a more private, non-hackable mode as of late - journalling by hand in a beaten up old notebook.

So that's it for now, at least.  I've found out more about God (and Bowie as I have also come to love his favourite places in New York as my own), than I ever would've thought possible.  And now, I'm off to go pick up my best friend from the airport.

Wednesday, June 6, 2018

Creative Writing: Sonnet Update


Trying to write a poem for my collaborative poetry project, and for fun this month I decided to try out difference styles.  This week I landed on Shakespearean sonnet and wow is it difficult.

Currently, Google has given me the following tips:

The rhyme scheme is ABAB CDCD EFEF GG

In the first quatrain the exposition of the main theme/metaphor is introduced.  In the second quatrain the theme/metaphor is extended/complicated with an imaginative example.  In the third quatrain the twist/conflict is introduced (the 9th line usually starts with "but").  And in the final couplet the poem summarizes with a new concluding image.

It is written in iambic pentameter, in which each line is 10 syllables; five pairs of "iambs", in which each iamb has a stressed/unstressed syllable pairing.

So far I've been trying to write the general theme and imagery before working it into an actual sonnet form, but figuring out syllables is super difficult for me.  I even have an online syllable counter to help me figure out the syllables and an online rhyming dictionary for easy inspiration.

The submission is due at the end of every week, so I have some time, but I have a feeling I'll be needing every day for it if it keeps proving to be as difficult as it has today.

Each month also has a theme, and I chose the one for this month, so I have a frame work for what I want to talk about.  However, I don't want to reveal it here, as I know we will want to publish the entire series in full at the end of the summer.

Tuesday, June 5, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 15 // 16


Home is a long way from here
Located within the depths of my memories
Populated with long gone characters
Stuck in eternal autumn

The future is always bright
And the past is always present
At the home in my mind

//

When I left home I did not know
It was a one-way ticket to go
Far far away from there
So I boarded without care
The ship that sailed ever onward
Toward a future where I wander
Aimlessly without end
Until - perhaps - one day when I shall send
My regards to the ever fading past
And find my rest at last.

Wardrobe of Moral Imagination: Chart Addition


So the other day I was inspired by this Buzzfeed post to track how often I talk with my friends.  Obviously, this is just my "Top 10" list, but there are a few other people I could include as well that also need to be charted.

I don't normally participate in Buzzfeed activities, but this one was quite useful.  Since it was the end of May, I took the opportunity to reflect on the month and I was rather surprised by what I learned.

Firstly, I took the idea to the next level by also colour-coding the way that I talk with people (text, facebook messenger, etc.), and I was surprised to learn that traditional texting is still more predominant than other messaging platforms.  Although, because I didn't save all my Snapchat correspondence when it happened, I could potentially use that app more than the chart reflects.

Secondly, I was also intrigued by the fact that I actually do contact my inner circle regularly - the only difference is the frequency and depth of conversation.  Obviously a texting conversation was less "in depth", in terms of the subject material we talked about and length that we talked about it, rather than a phone call.  However, phone calls were obviously less frequent than texting too.

And thirdly, I was interested to realise that although I don't feel like I "talk" with some friends, I actually communicate with them quite frequently - and vis versa.  Some people I feel like I talk with a lot, I actually only talk to about once a month (which is pretty much the same no matter who it is).

So in short, I would also recommend graphing your communications so you know where exactly you stand in terms of your friends and keeping up with them.  It really is easy to let life distract you from talking with your friends and staying up to date, so this is a good way to keep yourself accountable to all of your meaningful relationships.

Creative Writing: Poem 14


Forty-three point nine eight two six
That's where my heart ticks
One two four zero nine nine eight
That's where my thoughts like rain percolate

Wardrobe of Moral Imagination: Buddy Series Addition



Yesterday I finally broke down and signed up for a free trial of YouTube Red.  I am an avid YouTube devotee - it's where all of my "shows" are located, as I really don't watch a lot of television shows or movies in my daily life.  However, I had yet to break down and purchase a YouTube Red subscription because most of the content I wanted to watch was free.

However, because this week I finally have time to relax a little, I decided to binge watch Rhett & Link's "Buddy System" Season 2 (originally released last fall) yesterday, but it's only available if you subscribe to YouTube Red.  And now that I binge watched it, I can say it was definitely worth it!

The series was a huge improvement over the first series (which I watched today), and absolutely hilarious.  Full of charm, humour, and impressive production quality, I highly recommend it for anyone who's a fan of Rhett and Link or curious about the concept of a YouTube series in general (as a series made for streaming distribution/the Internet, rather than Netflix or Hulu).  I felt like it was a mash-up of a lot of film-making elements that show a commercialised product made by professionals in the industry, but with an independent studio-small crew feel, which I really enjoyed.

In the first season, the basic concept was a dramatised version of Rhett and Link and their adventures as they try to recover Link's phone from their mutual high school ex-girlfriend who is an infomercial queen bent on taking over their YouTube channel.  Although fun, the stakes felt rather shallow so it felt like a variety of high-jinks and sketches more than an in-depth, cohesive comedy show.

However, in the second season the basic concept was a lot better in terms of comedy, stakes, and cohesive narrative.  It's set in an alternate universe where Rhett and Link don't become friends in first grade, and the crazy adventures that ensue.  The tone of this series felt more developed as it riffed on jokes and props and actors from the original series, but re-worked in a fun way that totally took advantage of the "Alternate Universe" plot device.  Not to mention that the production quality was elevated and each individual episode longer so story lines had time to properly develop.  And they certainly weren't afraid to go into some crazy and ridiculous lengths that challenged gender roles and boundaries in the best way possible with their continual expansion of hilarious side characters.

I particularly loved the variety of material they were able to do in this series - even more music videos, different animation styles, better props, actors, and general elements.  My favourite episodes were definitely "To Kill a Robot" (2x01), "Virtual Rhettality" (2x05), and "A Frontier Story" (2x06).

In the first episode, which is free, Rhett and Link do a great job at establishing their characters and concepts with an interesting cliff hanger - it also sets up the right tone wonderfully for the rest of the season.  In short, a perfect season opener that is much more interesting than the first season.

In the fifth episode, Rhett and Link participate in a humourous love triangle with Link's friend Vanessa, in which they play the role of mother, son, and father (respectively) in the virtual world, while in the real world Link tries to have a "normal" (if not extremely comedic) romantic relationship with Vanessa.  And in the sixth episode, Rhett and Link participate in a "flashback" episode set during the mid-1800s that explain the origin of nougat.  It even includes a hilarious music video set in a parody style of the "Manifest Destiny" video of "Schoolhouse Rock".

Overall, this was definitely an enjoyable show that I would highly recommend.  In particular, as someone who is interested in the extent that independent series productions can go on a shoe string budget, it was really inspirational and exciting to watch all the while chuckling throughout the series.

Friday, June 1, 2018

Life Highlights: Drabble 15


Today is the second day of summer Fridays and I already know I'll be hard pressed to give them up (come September)! Even though it was a short week with Memorial Day weekend on Monday and a short day today, this week still felt way too long!

Next week, with so many people out of the office next week in London, I'm hoping for a fairly quiet time, but we'll see! Mainly I'm just excited to enjoy this short day by going to a park with a friend after work.  The sun looks like it's finally decided to make an appearance after weeks of April gloom extending throughout May - so fingers crossed that it holds up so I can go enjoy it in about three hours!

So far my time at HBO has been filled with long days of boredom interspersed with short periods of activity.  Although I do love New York, I know the side of film I'd rather be in is located in Los Angeles (symbolically, not literally).  Even if I'm not thrilled to LIVE in LA, I am excited about the idea of going back to the Best Coast West Coast next year to be closer to all my friends and family.

Thursday, May 31, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 13


We like to cast our friends as vile villains
Ready to play the part of devilish politician
A Brutus always waiting in the wings
About to stab our backs without feeling a thing
Always ready to exclaim with conviction
"Judas! It is you who has secured my crucifixion!"

But most acts of treachery are accidental
Happenstances - careless and incremental
I rarely find an act of treason
Executed with carefully calculated reason
A kiss on the cheek meant in affection
Rather than manipulated deception

Creative Writing: Haiku 46


Remorse is the clear
Recourse to refill our soul's
Depleted resource

Tuesday, May 29, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 12


I am merely a
Humble tradesman
My business, you ask?
To package emotion
To trade ideas
To sell you morality,
Philosophy -
To buy your stories
And sell your souls
To devour on faceless screens.

Life Highlights: Drabble 14


Started getting back into the swing of things again with my reading list (after essentially dropping off the face of the earth in January), and I decided to take a crack at The Brothers Karamazov once again! Hoping to set myself a schedule like I used to do at university to make sure I actually finish it within a decent time frame (two weeks) and also so I can discuss it with my new friend who told me it was his favourite book! Luckily, I also already had plans to read it!

So far it's pretty good! Only about 50 pages in, but like most Russian novels I've had the pleasure to read it's witty, insightful, and a clear masterpiece just from the opening sentence:

"Alexey Fyodorovich Karamazov was the third son of Fyodor Pavlovich Karamazov, a landowner of our district, who became notorious in his own day (and is still remembered among us) because of his tragic and myserious death, which occurred exactly thirteen years ago and which I shall relate in its proper place."

The back blurb didn't need to convince me of it's already intricate themes regarding family, religion, politics/society, and what it means to be human - just within it's first few pages.  I can't wait to see what I think by the end of it!

Wardrobe of Moral Imagination: Lake Street Dive Addition


For the past few weeks, all I've been able to listen to is Lake Street Dive! So I figured they deserved a huge shout-out on my blog.

Originally from Boston, their wikipedia page describes their sound as a blend between southern rock, indie pop, blue-eyed soul, jazz, folk rock and motown (some of the best genres, to be honest).  My friend Shane introduced them to me about a year ago, and I really liked them, but with the release of their latest album "Free Yoruself Up" this year, I've once again found myself going back to their sound - which is my type of music.  Lyrically and musically demanding, catchy as all get out, and an all-around great treat for your ears, give them a listen!

Below is the link to my Spotify playlist of my favourites by them:

https://open.spotify.com/user/pieces_of_jade/playlist/2Zh2TZYJCLIe4gvBfr2syi

Life Highlights: Memorial Day Weekend

The Atlantic as seen from Rockaway Beach (it was hard to get a photo without a person in it!)

Well I'm officially back from Memorial Day Weekend, and already feeling blue about it!

The weather seriously didn't get the memo that the weekend was Saturday-Monday, as the only properly decent weather was on Friday and Saturday.  Sunday and Monday it was cloudy and a little cold, but last Thursday and today it's nice and sunny - perfect summer weather.

However, that doesn't mean I didn't try to take advantage of what I could.  Friday I left at 2pm (almost no one was in the office - it felt like a proper summer holiday weekend) and then I got dinner with a friend and walked around a park afterwards, enjoying the nice summer night.

Saturday I went to Rockaway Beach, which I actually liked less than Coney Island mainly because it was so much farther away and it seemed a lot smaller to me.  However, it was great to go and experience anyway - the iconic Ramones song blasting away in my headphones all the while.  Not to mention that the water was crystal clear (I was super surprised) and I got to talk with Ike on the phone, write in my journal, and just take in the sea breeze and the sun.  Ike and I even decided to start a writing project together in which we exchange pieces each week regarding a theme word of the month! This month I chose the word to be "Reconciliation".

Sunday was a day of rest where I just coloured in a colouring book, ran a few errands, and then stayed up until 3:30am talking with my friend Liz on the phone for over 9 straight hours (not an exaggeration!) - we only call each other once a month because if we did any more we would never get anything done! I always anticipate our Sunday calls, and this one was a huge catch-up call because she didn't have youth group that night and it was Memorial Day weekend so I didn't have to go into work the next day, which was nice.  The main problem for me is just the time difference!

Then yesterday I had a really great day going out with a friend.  We went to my favourite park, looked at some street art, ate sandwiches, and looked around at the Strand (one of my favourite book stores).  We actually lost track of time because we were so engrossed in all the different titles (of course I ended up buying two books), and found out later that we spent around 5 straight hours in the shop! We both couldn't believe it, and obviously decided to go back home after we found out the time was 8pm at night! Then I got to catch up with my friend Anna before going back to the grind today.

The only consolation by far is that it's only 3.5 days this week, since Tues-Thurs are normal hours, but summer Fridays have officially started at HBO, meaning that I get to leave at 3pm! And this week I have plans to hang out again on Friday (and hopefully take advantage of some good weather!)

I also can't believe that June 1st is this Friday! Where has the time gone? Summer will be over before I know it and then Todd will be in Boston!

Friday, May 25, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 11


there was a time he thought
the future was going to be bright
beaches, babes, and buried treasure
days filled with adventure
nights filled with sleeping under the stars
no more small towns
no more small dreams
just him and his brother
versus the world

but one mistake
and that all changed

there was a time he thought
the future was bleak
if he even had one
days filled with pain
nights filled with paranoia
no more needing any one
no more needing any thing
just the world and his brother
versus him

but one summer
and that all changed

now he thought
no more wondering about the future
with his past all but forgotten
but the present was just fine with him
on the deck of the boat
he used to only see in his dreams
just him and his brother
versus the world

once again




prompt: write a poem about growing old, but don’t state it directly.

(obviously this is my take on Stan's life and getting older)

Thursday, May 24, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 10


I feel like I have to hoard up
every word you grant me
Like a miser counting up every coin
storing away your thoughts
Deep into the recesses of my heart.
Because I am a beggar
pleading to hear your voice
Just one more time.
Who knows when I will receive
such a gift again
I pray, could you just spare a single penny?
But you always avoid my beseeching eyes
While conversing with another -
too busy hurrying to work -
Feigning ignorance to my plight.
And on the rare cloudy day,
when you decide to be with me again,
I sadly watch the clock
Knowing time spent with you is never enough.
But you always leave just the same.

Wednesday, May 23, 2018

Wardrobe of Moral Imagination: Anastasia (Musical) Review


Saw Anastasia last night at the Broadhurst Theatre, and it was incredible!

It was based off of the 1997 animated movie that I fondly remember watching numerous times as a child (even if it scared me when they summoned Rasputin from hell).  However, I have never seen a Broadway play that was adapted from a movie before, so I wasn't sure how a film-to-theatre work would go.  And I am pleased to say that I think the musical is an improvement on the film.

From a narrative perspective, they took out all of the "magic" (in the sense of sorcery and spells) to instead put in the historical context of early 20th century Russia.  Rather than a disgruntled sorcerer, the musical had the Bolshevik Revolution be the reason for the tsarist regime to be over.  As a result, it was hard to desire the Romanovs to simply be put back in power.  To root for aristocrats busy partying away their sorrows in Paris to be put back in power over a tumultuous and suffering Russian populace is a stretch - at best.  And it allows the "villains" of the story to have the weight of historical context and motivators to fuel their actions for why they would want to over-throw and kill the Romanov family in the first place.  As a result, it was a more "mature" story from classic Disney than I've seen in a long time - one rife with a lot of grey areas and politics.

However, that didn't stop the story from having compelling characters be the centerpiece of the story.  In fact, rather cleverly, the writers made the audience root for a reunion between Anastasia and her grandmother (with perhaps a bit of romance on the side between Anastasia and Dimitri) instead of hoping for a broad restoration of a broken regime.  By having a colourful cast be the centerpiece for a war-torn socio-political cultural landscape it felt more like a "Disney-fied" love story that takes place in the middle of war (always a crowd favourite).

In particular, the addition of communist soldier Gleb to round out the historical-bent of the musical to replace Rasputin's role was ingenious.  A conflicted man trying to do his best for a party he believes in with a traumatic past shaped by revolution is much more interesting and compelling than a (literal) cartoon evil villain.  And I absolutely adored the expanded songs and stage-time for the secondary characters of Vlad and Countess Lily.  Their song "The Countess and the Common Man" was absolutely hilarious and, to be honest, made their love story more compelling than Anastasia's and Dimitri's.  The not-so-subtle hints of their passionate love affair in their youth was reminiscent of many truly Russian stories in which unhappy marriages are the norm.

Which, speaking of, the amount of historical, cultural, political, societal, and artistic nods and one-liners throughout the musical was absolutely fabulous.  Unfortunately many of them went over the heads of the audience as they were all related to great Russian and French figures of the late-19th and early 20th centuries.  But I still loved many tongue-in-cheek nods like the line, "Everyone's a writer! Painter! Poet! Everything is avant garde or chic!" referring to the culture of early 20th-century Paris.  And the tone of the mourning Russian aristocracy to the "Land of Yesterday" was absolutely dead-on in terms of the complicated sentiments everyone had to Russia's changing political landscape.

And then finally, the ending of the narrative was much more ambiguous than the film which I liked a lot better.  The film makes it clear that "Anya" (the young woman who lost her memory who is the protagonist of the story) is the real Anastasia.  In fact, it is revealed that as a young boy Dimitri is the one who helped her escape the fire.  In the musical, however, the truth of her identity, although assumed, is much more ambiguous.  Her recollections of her past are constantly in conflict with the fact that she is attempting to embody the character of Anastasia and "making the story her own".  And the only interaction she and Dimitri would've had before her memory loss in the musical is that he was a boy she spotted in the crowd during a parade.  Although the characters all accept her as the real Anastasia, this ambiguity is cleverly incorporated into the ending.  Both her grandmother and Gleb announcing to the world that the fate of the real Anastasia is lost to history - and a mystery - to this day, while it is assumed that Anastasia ran off with Dimitri to live a long and happy life away from the prying eyes of politics and society.  I liked this ending more than the original film as well because it allows for history to continue as it unfolded throughout the 20th century and for the fate of Anastasia to continue to be romanticised in future story-telling to come.

From a technical perspective, the musical numbers weren't anything to write home about.  It had a lot of the "mid/late-90s" feel, but combined with vaguely romantic Russian influences.  The clear stand out number being "Once Upon a December" from the original film.  The costumes were typical Disney - absolutely romanticsed (in a good way), with everyone performing being vaguely handsome.  However, the real stand-out to me were the computerized stage pieces and backdrops.  At first I was wary of how it would look.  I love the physical set pieces of Broadway and the special effects are well-renowned.  But after seeing how they incorporated the virtual backdrops with the physical set pieces I was pleased with the overall effect.

The backgrounds themselves were clearly romanticised backdrops - "cheese-y" CGI that even a basic film wouldn't accept today.  However, it seemed to harken back to the large backdrops of old where romanticized scenes were painted that would've never existed in the real world.  And by leaning into the "backdrop" heritage rather than trying to make it look a 100% realistic, the computer effects totally worked.  Although I still enjoy my physical props, I definitely can see the potential for when and how to use the digital wonders of the 21st century within a fun theatre context, which I greatly enjoyed.  If nothing else, for all the colour it brought to the stage.

So overall I give this musical a solid 4/5 for improving greatly on the story and characters from the original film and for incorporating new technical elements into its adaptation.  If you're in the area, I recommend it as a fun show to see if you're looking for a good time at the theatre.

And if you excuse me, my entire week has apparently been about consuming and talking about Russian art, so I need to finally start reading The Brothers Karamazov now.

Tuesday, May 22, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 9


in the warm darkness of night
pine trees would sway in the wind
as if caught in a ballet
shielding my little cottage
from the torrential downpour
the bursts of light
part of the magic they wove
protecting me
from the roaring battle in the distance
while sentinel stars twinkled above the
ocean of grey clouds below and overhead
there was a crackle of wonder in the
crisp Oregon air


prompt: Write a poem about a thunderstorm. DON’T use any of these words: umbrella, thunder, rain, storm

Monday, May 21, 2018

Creative Writing: Poem 8


My spirit is fenced in
I am trapped by endless land
Stretching as far as the eye can see
The breath of life is far away
My soul yearns for it.

The sky is blinding white
Causing blisters to my beating heart
A cruel mockery
Of the cool blue heavens
Over the waves.

The Spirit of God resides there
Within the waters of the sea
In every roar of every wave
In every salty sea breeze
In every drop of rain.

He would never leave me
But my soul thirsts for Him
In this endless desert
So very alone in every crowd
I do not feel His presence.

prompt: nature imagery / spiritual metaphors

Creative Writing: Tanka 13


I feel the ocean
Calling my spirit toward
Endless horizon
Where sea and sky embrace, met
At last in Eternity

Life Highlights: Drabble 13


I feel the end of this blog drawing near (at least in terms of an "every day post" kind of thing.  I have turned more towards my journal to do my interior processing that I want to do regarding my spiritual life and revelations about God that He has blessed me with.  And my obsession with Bowie, while still a happy simmer, is slowly dying in favour of Gravity Falls, which it has been for a while anyways, but it well and truly is on its way out.

So I think at the anniversary of a year of this blog (in July) I'll switch over to updating when I have something interesting and/or important I want to talk about (that isn't on Facebook or something of that sort).  But otherwise I don't think I'll do my daily updates here.  Not that this blog has been a lot of updates - just snippets of poetry at most interspersed with life updates and drabbles (very few argumentative essays have appeared here since last year).

Which, honestly, I'm quite happy with.  Not everything I write do I want to be recorded by Google (or read by anyone on the Internet).  And hand writing in a journal is a perfect way to internally process a lot of thoughts and feelings that I have.  Even if I was reluctant at first to even call it a journal since in the past I've been so horrible at keeping one (as in, I never kept one).  I even called it originally just an ideas notebook or a place to drabble in - I only started calling it at journal after loving Gravity Falls.

And so life keeps moving on.  Marine came into town yesterday and we had a lot of fun.  First we went to the Met, then we went down to Madison Square Park and the Flat Iron building before going to walk across the Brooklyn Bridge, finishing the day by shopping on Broadway in Nolita and at Macy's in Herald Square.  We got lunch at Dig Inn on the Upper East Side (delicious and healthy! If not also stupidly expensive), and dinner at Mexicue - really close to my work, actually, and totally phenomenal.  Great food with a reasonable cost - it's definitely going on my favourite places to eat out now.

She also surprised me with Broadway show tickets for tomorrow! We're going to see Anastasia which is great since I ALMOST got those tickets for when Manar was here, but ended up going to see Phantom instead (although that is also a fantastic show, of course).  So I'm super excited to see it now! I wish I could to an all out extravaganza like I did with Bubs and Todd again, but so soon after their visit just two weeks ago (almost three), I definitely don't have enough money (or time off) to do so right now, unfortunately.  But I'm planning on getting lunch and dinner/spend the evenings and nights with her for the next three days that she's here.

Other than that, I'm still holding out hope that my friend Nolan will be in the City in early June (I really would love to get dinner with him!) and then my friends Theo and Jordan are coming for the first week of July! So plans a plenty are still happening.  Not to mention the fact that my mom has THREE (!) trips planned for New York in the coming year - one in the fall, one during Christmas time, and one next spring! So lots to look forward to as my time in the City is drawing to a close (since I predict moving back to the west coast by some time next year).